it's been so long since i wrote here..

my life has changed quite drastically, it was pretty hard to forget my last one, but being together with my recent makes me realize that he's a really understanding man..

i've confessed a lot of things to him, quite numbers of things that made him heartbroken, and yet he accepted me as who i am..

he's a very rare kind, to be honest, and he's the best guy i've ever met so far..

i'll try my best to work this relationship out, cause he makes me closer to Him, and the most important thing i've asked Him is that please give me a man that will be a good husband and a good father who can lead us to be a decent Christian family..

i thank Him each day for letting me have the chance to get to know him, but i know at the end it all depends on Him.. 

i've never known that you would think of me that much, eventhough you do miss

i've been disappointed.

it's funny how i want everyone to do as what i want or to be like me, of course, it's not possible.

all those days, you had been acting like you were the older one, the mature one, the one knew everything, the one who didn't want anyone to tell you what to do.

i nodded, because i cared, and i loved. i would be and would do anything you wanted me to.

i had blown it away earlier, but you've made it empty.

now i miss and i want but i can't.

because my ego is growing.

you're a realistic person indeed, but you should have listened to your heart what you actually wanted.

you always try to be wise, but it's not about it anymore.

i just hope one day you will realize, i really did love.