you know sometimes i just wanna be someone who knows everything about everyone, maybe meddle other people's business too.

..."no, i don't want to be one".

then i have learned so much, about how i shouldn't be someone who wants to know everything about everyone, how i shouldn't meddle other people's business.

i keep telling myself "just mind your own business, irene ! ", i do, and it works, it feels lighter when i just don't care, when i just mind my own business, when i just think about my own problems and not anyone else's.

and i thank you for that, i might look the same but i'm no longer a teenager, i told myself to change since the day i turned twenty.

i'm growing up and i will keep changing.

i feel so bad...

i don't really remember what happened but because i came along today,one friend fought with his bestfriend...

i'm really really  sorry to everyone who was there just now...

i wished so many things these 2 days,

i wished for things which i've never thought before...

i have many crazy ideas in my mind sometimes,

but none i had really meant it,

none i had had the gut to do so,

none i had been so disappointed about,

until yesterday...

you,someone new for me,compared to my loved ones at home...

you made me different,from what i used to be,

into what i am now...

is it a bad thing ?

yes and no,

yes-because you made me love you more than others,way more,until i feel i always chase you and ignore them...

no-because now i understand when people say  "i do because i love"...